ugh

Maine and i are over. I'm feeling a lot of ways. it sucks. i know everything happens for a reason, but I'm hurting and i dont feel like i can talk to anyone about it.

I'm mad at him and myself for our actions and carelessness. we weren't honest when we should've been, or loyal, or genuine. We didn't love each other when we should have. We both had every opportunity to fix it...we had choices and we made the wrong ones. we had all the power to make it work and we failed.

I wanted a grown up relationship so bad, i wanted to be with HIM so bad. and now i have to start over :(