thank god!

i was talking to maine today and it made me stop to think.....that both of my best friends ended up on heroin and losing there kids. all this time i was hateful to jeff (even today thinking about how maine lets me be me, but jeff never did when it came to how i dressed and what music i listened to) for not letting me be and made my own decisions. well maybe him keeping me on a leash, stopped me from being on drugs and losing my kids and god knows what else. i think a portion of it was me, but a portion was him as well. so another lesson learned.thank GOD!